Journal 3 : Old Fears

         In the past, I pretended to be an introvert. Although having many friends in high school and university, I am quite shy. It sounds extraordinary, isn't it? I found it difficult to make new friends; they always talked to me first. Talking to a strange person used to be my fear. The feeling of nervousness and anxiety always conquer me, especially when I try to communicate with a lady. It is so hard.
         Everything is better when I graduated and worked for a bank. In new environment, I had to meet, communicate, and persuade a wide range of customers.This changed my character. If I was shy and didn't how to begin a conversation, it would affect my productivity. Hence, I would lose my job. Luckily, "The Fine Art of Small Talk", the book which my friend referred me helped me so much. It taught me how to begin a conversation, how to keep my talking, and how to persuade my partner. I used to think that I know how to be extrovert. When I read this book, I recognize that I know nothing. However, to be successful, practicing is required. I tried to talk to someone whom I have never known, day by day. Now that, communication is not my fear, I feel more confident, active.